heya.
doubt i'll be updating much nimore. yes yes. partly exams, partly laziness. but im too faithful to this blog. so dun wori, aint abandoning it. =)
gosh* they're all so sweet. yuni e-mailed me. jambu came online just to tell me. n naz offered to msg fer me. hee. clever ppl. noe tat my prepaid's low. hahkz. yays. we're going cameron. in 1month + 2days time! woo.
fer now. exams coming head on. believe it.? i've yet to start revising. hmphs.
didnt have to go to sch today. n i waisted it. woke up late. den yada yada. went out wif Aimah. Cp. Sp. Np. took pic n made her ez-link. bought mum's present. hee. got some hairbands at Aries. n Popular to replenish my stationeries.
the afternoon. was in mum's room. fan plus aircons on. raining outside. curtains drawn. radio blasting. tuned to 98.7FM. pillows surrounding me. on tat king/queen sized bed. im not sure. gosh, nice emo-istic feeling. hehkz. daydreamed. alot. hmphs.
k. prolly not updating on sunday. so.
Hapi mother's day, mak. i luv you ouh-so-much. im sure you noe tat. but ouh wells. i luv you so darn much. could never ask fer a better mother den wad you already are. *muaahs* thanks fer every single thing of my life. i luv you.
n erms. there's some may babies cuming soon. but heck. tink im tired of being the nice one, dedicating entries fer pple. so, to one and all hu's celebrating their bday this month. Happy Birthday!
you. i dun get you. maybe it's just me. teraser. but why, the cold shoulder.? hmphs. it's me.? or r you just pissed off, n i came at the wrong timing.? im tired. you can just tell me tat u hate me, you noe. it's unfair tat im the one, always trying to cheer ppl up. if you're not hapi, and im not making you any hapi-er, den the least you could do, is not to make me un-hapi. pretend, at least.?
no. tell me the truth, at least. so i wont be teraser. gosh. maybe you reali do hate me. hmphs.
k. now i noe. im a hypocrite. i look hapi all the time.? well no. tat's a pretend. so pple around me wont be affected by the pissed-off feeling in me. geddit.? yeah. n now, im tired of pretending. so screw all you pple, now tat im pissed.
hehkz. wad crap. i've decided. i tink. i dun want to be nice anymore. irah said tat im cruel. coz preety pple to her seems ugly pple to me. n i'd stand my ground. critisizing. yada yada. ouwhs yeah. im so myself when wif her. wif dee n maria. but i cant seem to be myself when wif others.
k fine. im done. crapping my emo-istic feelings in here aint satisfying. coz there's too much limitations. boundaries. the pple reading this. i noe, i dunno. you teraser.? yes.? gosh, dun uh. wasnt my main intention. no.? good. coz ur not suppose to. wasnt my main intention.
*pissed off wif everything around me.*